all you great analysts of my life were correct. i never stopped believing you guys. i’ve had 4 / 5 days off in a row from work and the burden that has been lifted is quite enoromous. i’m living a happier and healthier life and it shows. my mom says there’s a new glow to me and i’m getting back into physical activities.
my grandma who’s always uncannily correct about everything about me says that she can tell things are good. indeed they are…i’ve been sleeping at around 2/3ish every night for the past 4 days and waking up at around whatever time i need to be awake without the aid of an alarm clock. YES! you heard it right. For those of you who have only gotten to know me in the past year or so will realize i’m somewhat of a sleepaholic when placed under stressful conditions. i never realize that i’m in them.
so to those that are fortunate enough to have known me through all things and have kept their eyes open..you have correctly diagnosed the cause of many of my problems.
if you think back to my days at film school, i was happy and enjoying things and i could go for weeks with 5 or less hours a night of sleep and still awake feeling refreshed and ready for the next day. then things got a little hectic, i returned to working at forzani, life decided to take a turn here and there, stop and go yadda yadda and soon i wasn’t enjoying life.
well here i am now…the past week and a bit has been quite eye opening.
putting in my notice at work was only the first step.
realizing that i should be seeking what i love and enjoy was the second.
and the third…continue to pursue/develop/enjoy – what/who/why/where you love regardless of what others may think or say, or what other influences may bind you to the negativity that you will unavoidably encounter.
i only get religious once in awhile…so bare with me here…i truly do believe God places certain people, experiences, and other things in your life at certain times to create those wonderous moments of deja vu like realization of what’s great and good.
it’s funny how it’s both fortunate and unfortunate that life as a teacher….will test you … before teaching you the lesson.
i can’t think of anything else that is like that. so here i am standing today..after hours of deep conversation with anita and eric…i think we all came away from the roundtable with a new understanding of things that we would have never thought of….if it weren’t for the other 2 people present at the table.
anyways…this month i think will be a crazy month..i’m sure each and every one of you will become involved with me in some sort of way as i make a new effort to stitch together a picture using our relationships as thread.
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you put yourself down at least 400 times / min. it’s scientifically proven (somehow..i really don’t know how..i just know it is supposedly scientifically backed). now add on top of that the amount of times other people diss you. now think of how valuable it is when someone praises you, or expresses love, or shows that they care about you.
value it. i’m definitely going to make more of a conscious effort to appreciate everything that everyone does for me. even the silly things. to balance it off..i’m going to try to do something that’ll be of value with everyone i know.
where i start is the hard part…from what i hear though..i think i’m off to a great new start. it’s funny how it takes big “moments” in life for you to consciously want to change for the better.
anyways…enough for the deep talk..there was plenty of that tonight.
oh yes another funny observation…how people enjoy looking into other peopels daily lives and want to know all the exact details…but then again i suppose that desire is in plain site with all these crazy soap operas on tv out there.
so here’s a view into mine.
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today i woke up, read a bit of a magazine, picked up anita, rented a movie, watched it at my place, explained to my mom that anita was neither korean nor japanese, dropped anita off at work, returned home for dinner with my family, thanked my parents for once for dinner, headed back out to justin’s, played and tried to humbly lose repeatedly in games of nhl 2003 to eric and justin, headed over to anita’s with eric, headed to martini’s for food, had a deep conversation that followed us from house to resturaunt to home to blog.
wow … fun wasn’t it? hahah
anyways time for me to get some sleep. i hope you all had a good day..
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