Reverb

in case we can’t chase a JAL down

it only gets more difficult in the fall…

memories of summer time bliss, for you.

we will catch it though. sans the nude people.

disappearing

it’s a disappearing act. yes i disappeared for the weekend, and came back bearing gifts. it was meant to be. everything fit together like clockwork. the stay. the food. the shopping. the ability to return with approx 450 USD worth of merchandise in less than 2 days without a hitch….marvelous.

went broke pleasing some people…but i think it was all worth it in the end. so i’ll be disappearing again. to be financially feasible.

let’s see my mom was super happy when i brought her back a stuffed shar-pei…we all know how hard those are to find…talk about overpriced..and to make it worse..US Dollar! but it was worth it to see the expression on my mom’s face…

mandy has her suprise suprise that i still haven’t given to her yet…so i can’t mention.

got eric some alc to add to his new collection for his new abode.

after returning…took danielle out for her bday…

everything in the weekend just panned out perfectly…

i can’t explain the point at which i stand…but i’m happy that many other of you friends out there are at a point in your life when things are going well and you’re happy where you are.

take that feeling of content and multiply it a few times and you’ve got where / what i am.

i must reintigrate myself once things slow down …

all smiles here.

another time to learn

yeah i figure it’s one of those blogs again…of what i’ve learned regarding the simpler things in life.

it’s tough chasing down a JAL plane in a civic.
it’s hard to catch a sunset over an ocean horizon (oregon had my hopes up).
i tend to be physically dyslexic. (eg. i’ll unwrap a candy and throw out the candy and keep the wrapper).
you truly live a better life, when friends around you are as well (i think this one’s been used before).
majority of cellphone useage time is spent pressing buttons instead of actually conversing.
spider’s are the most persistent creatures in the world…regardless of how many times their homes are destroyed they rebuild the very next day.
any chicken dish at koya will make you sick.
somethings “just happen” and it’s really that simple.
things on tv can happen in reality (but things on reality tv shows don’t necessarily)
appreciation makes everything worthwhile.
depreciation makes you wish you bought something else.
work and play shouldn’t mix has it’s exceptions.
when work is play, work is no longer work and everything is play.
stress free releases so much more than just mental stability.

i think that’s it for now..but regardless of how physically tired i am at the moment..and how up and down it’s been…i’m enjoying every moment of it quite genuinely.

toodles.

my how we’ve grown

it’s been awhile since my last blog. it’s been awhile since my last appearance. so much has changed and so much has passed. soon the new layout that i spoke of shall become a reality, but until then you’ll have to live with this.

if you haven’t already read eric’s blog for today..i suggest you do so. it does hit home…everything is going so well for everyone lately…

i must say i’m extremely in awe in how everyone’s sorta matured and grown in the past 2 months…everything for everyone is going well. including myself.

the only person i really have the right to analyze is myself, and i’m glad i’ve had the opportunity to discover so much about myself during the past few weeks.

i think a few of you can finally come to me and say “about time you’ve grown the fuck up…” yeah i’ve acted immature in the past..but looking back i’ve learnt so much….and without all these crazy dramatic events in my life i would’ve never realized how good things are. without all you people putting me in my place (and you select few too) perhaps i wouldn’t be where i am now.

this next part is for you: as ungrateful as i may have appeared to be in the past. i’m in total debt to you now for the valuable lessons i’ve learned. it’s been a long journey from where we started from. i’m glad everything that happened…happened. sometimes it takes a few hard knocks to remember not to regret your past actions, for it’s these actions that make you the person you are. confusion is sometimes the clearest link you have to reality. it’s what tells you you’re still alive and kicking — living. if things were crystal clear, your world would be just as fragile as crystal. dark coals at the time…are now developing into diamonds — durable, nuggets of clarity and insight. things that you stay with you for the rest of your life. as little as i may have shown it…i don’t think a single person has taught me so much. i’m lucky that from this point looking back…i can say i’ve become wiser. perhaps a little jaded, but once again..it takes being jaded to realize how to enjoy being on the edge of constant change and situations. i can confidently take a few steps forward and breathe and realize how fragrant the future is…i can live the present — seeking out the best, and i can definitely look back and have fond memories.

now this part, is for you: you’ve known me all 22 years. you thought this would never happen…i never thought this would happen. it did though. i’ve known you for 22 years. i thought the past few months of events would never happen. they did. funny how we’ve proved each other wrong. funny what being taught to respect has done to us. i’m glad. definitely wouldn’t have made it so far being remotely as sane as i am now. i’m happy for you..i hope you’re happy for me. actually that’s silly cuz i know you are…you’re obligated haha. funny how this shit goes…wow. i’ve never spilt so much in so little…guess no need for a shrink no more hahah. freudian slips mixed in with some of pavlov’s dogs…what a paradox eh? oh well nothing has ever fit inside the box for me…and i guess i’ve finally reached the point at which i’ve realized that and have expanded my box to include everything.

this part is for you: you always wanted me to tell you when. i dont’ know how i can do that since you left in 97. maybe in 4 months when it’s time to see you again…i’ll remember to tell you…actually i don’t think i can wait. i know you listen to me…but this is one time i wish i could hear you out…you always did know what was best for me. i’ll remember to bring the music this time, and i apologize for the last time. i know how you like it. hope you don’t find it weird that i’m chasing your shadow still…even though it’s been 6 years. i suppose it shouldn’t stop…but who knows..you’ve always understood so it’s okay.

and this part is for you: it’s been a short while, but short is so relative. i’m sure you’ve read that chain email that has the value of time relative to so many different people. it’s exactly like that…that’s my conclusion. time is so relative that depending on how you bend it…short can be long…long can be short. einstein explained his own theory best with “when a man sits with a pretty girl for an hour, it seems like a minute. but let him sit on a hot stove for a minute�and it�s longer than any hour.” now that’s relativity…and i think that’s what it is…but like you said..time will tell…and for once in my life it’s all worth it.

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wow talk about wearing your heart on your sleeve, i honestly don’t care anymore…if you never do that then when will you ever learn the joys of life? the past few weeks i’ve been enjoying everything i’ve used to. capturing moments of time. creating memories. walking. watching. complimenting. working. sleeping. hoping. dreaming. relaxing. accepting. delivering. returning. bonding. growing. maturing. playing. planning. traveling. running. staring. standing. breathing. spinning. kicking. turning. closing my eyes and reaching out….it feels great!

to everyone else and their good fortune…this is living…and this is what friends are all about…sharing these moments…i love you all so very much…